Fusionoize Laos/Cambodia 07 Reflections

For this trip in 2007, it was a totally different experience this time round that I am glad I went through the entire project. For most of the pre-trip period, I was the expedition leader and was made to plan aspects of it such as the itinerary and service. It is in my deepest regrets that thoughts of scraping a possible CIP project and even the whole trip itself ran through our minds due to a lack of productivity on my part. The many scoldings taught me that leaving things to the last minute and being benign about it was instead the biggest mistake I made. In similar expeditions in the future, I would definitely approach the planning stages with apprehension and urgency to avoid such an embarrassment again; for that I am sorry for myself and the other participants of this trip.
As the time came to make or break it did our doubts finally began to lift a little, with plenty of salvaging done by the other members of the trip and this was during the last 2 weeks before departure. I was also hindered by many other issues such as my relationship with others and how I handled them with regards to this trip. It was through this tedious and draining process that I rediscovered the friends I made in my VSNPCC years, including the Fusionoize members not with us.
During the trip itself, I believe I tried my best in making up for what I have lost to the others. I must admit we really pulled through this time because of our efforts in covering one another and unspoken support for each other, for which I am thankful. The 16 days was like a reward to me as a result of hard work put in by everyone, a pity it lasted only awhile. Our relationships were really tested as I am sure I made everyone sad, worried or simply pissed off at least once. However, I am appreciative of the fact that we did not have to fight over something before making up; our bond simply put us back together within a mealtime.
Now that everything is over, I am glad things that are meant to be kept are still there amongst us while the ills of my character have hopefully been put away. Let the year of 2008 bear testimony to what I have said, where it is my resolution to have another successful EOY trip project with the same Fusionoize again that I can say for once that I have done everything to my best.

JW